Live.Live for the bliss. For the fear. Live for the heartbreak. Live for the laughter and for the love and for the tears.
Live for yourself . . . with the door wide open.
And I get that.I do.
But I also say, know when it is time to close the door.
But even more so know when or if it is a good idea to allow them to re-open.
Never mind about sliding doors, this is about opening doors. Or perhaps more so, closing doors.
That even during difficult times, or the time out that I took, when I took a step back and a detachement from certain things, that door was always open. There are times it may not have been wide open, but left ajar maybe, but it has always been open.
Open to the future.
Open to whatever or who may come through the door. Open to whatever or whoever life may bring along.
But, I am also someone who closes doors on things where it needs to be closed on. It gives closure, the door needs to close for a reason, and I for the most part, feel that closed doors shouldn't be allowed to re-open.
So, I rarely allow them to.
This may seem harsh. But we close doors for a reason, upon things that have happened for a reason. When we close them, it will have been done because there was a need to, that we had to.
So why would we re-open them, re-opening to what was or what happened before?
Something happened recently which did mean a door re-opened. With concern yes. With hesitancy certainly. But the door opened slightly, but that hesitancy meant it didn't nor wouldn't, nor could it ever open fully.
Something happened this week which confirmed to me, that my hesitancy in doing so, in allowing the door to re-open, was very right. It also showed me that it is important that I do not second guess myself, that I do not doubt the decisions I have made and which have always been the right one.
My own experiences in the past have shown me the right time to close the door and also, not to allow them to re-open.
I should hold onto that and know what works for me.
So although a "sliding door" may have been opened again, it isn't just sliding shut, it has already been firmly closed.
In hindsight, maybe it should have been left that way, but hindsight is something we do not have at the time.
Still even though a door may close, I continue to live with the door, very much wide open.