The "what if's" torture the mind. What if I had known. What if I could have done something. What if I didn't do enough.
There's lots of things I can't quite process right now. I honestly don't know why life has a way of merrily going along, with lots of wonderful things and lots of positives and then out of nowhere it throws shit at full force. And the wonderful, it disappears as quickly as it started!
I spent this morning at an emergency specialist appointment for my son, no waiting for normal referrals here. As if he hasn't had enough battling with his health in his life, it seems as if other issues are creeping in now too.
Fuck the what if's, fuck it. Fuck you life!
Fuck it all!!!!!